Facing my fears
Well, I've done it. I am now registered for my very first writers conference. I've been researching and planning and talking about going for months. I've been putting it off under the veil of "praying about it" when in reality I was just scared. Now that I'm committed, I'm terrified.
Once again my hesitation is simply delayed obedience. But God is always faithful, isn't He? He knows I'm intimidated. He knows I'm completely unqualified without Him. Therein lies the catch: I'll never be without Him! He will not tell me to do something then leave me unequipped to complete it. He will be right by me guiding my steps, my words. He already knows the people I'll meet and the ones I won't. He has ordained it all. In that truth my fear must dissipate.
"Be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid and do not panic before them. For the Lord your God will personally go ahead of you. He will neither fail you nor abandon you.” - Deuteronomy 31:6 (NLT)
So here I am. The clock is ticking down. I've got a lot of prep to do and eight weeks, three days, and twenty-three hours until my flight. No problem.
Once again my hesitation is simply delayed obedience. But God is always faithful, isn't He? He knows I'm intimidated. He knows I'm completely unqualified without Him. Therein lies the catch: I'll never be without Him! He will not tell me to do something then leave me unequipped to complete it. He will be right by me guiding my steps, my words. He already knows the people I'll meet and the ones I won't. He has ordained it all. In that truth my fear must dissipate.
"Be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid and do not panic before them. For the Lord your God will personally go ahead of you. He will neither fail you nor abandon you.” - Deuteronomy 31:6 (NLT)
So here I am. The clock is ticking down. I've got a lot of prep to do and eight weeks, three days, and twenty-three hours until my flight. No problem.
Labels: fear, obedience, writing projects
5 Comments:
You'll have a blast, Tanya, and I'm sure this won't be your last writers' conference...in fact, one of these days you'll probably be one of the speakers. That may sound far out to you at this point, but it's definitely possible and plausible; one step at a time. At at that point, it really won't even be a big deal to you; you will have "been there, done that." Experience is a wonderful thing, and the only way to gain it is to go with the days and events He places before you covered in His grace and humility.
wow , this is so cool, you will do just great...
Thanks, ladies! :)
Cami, you have much more confidence in me (and in our God using me!) than I do! Thanks for the faith.
Very exciting Tanya! I have a close, wise, encouraging pastor friend who always reminds people, "God has not set you up to fail. He has set you up to succeed!" You know it! I hope you have a wonderful time, learn a lot, and are stretched and inspired! I'll pray for your nerves too. ;)
Taryn: Thanks for the prayers!! My nerves shall be the death of me ... them and my uncontrollable habit of procrastination. ;)
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